
New Delhi: Actor Priyanka Chopra today said
her greatest achievement has been her ability to consistently
conquer fear and her biggest dream is to leave behind a
legacy.
The 35-year-old actor, however, became emotional when she
said that her biggest regret would be not being able to spend
enough time with her father, Ashok Chopra, who passed away in
2013 after battling cancer.
"(My) biggest achievement is the ability to get over my
fears. My biggest achievement is to turn my vulnerability into
my strength because I'm usually emotional and I get affected
by a lot of things.
"I know I come across as as tough, sassy and witty. That
is a big part of protecting myself. There has not been anyone
holding out a safety net for me. So, I trust my instinct, so
that even if I fail, it'll be my failure... My biggest regret
is I didn't spend as much time as I did with my dad," Priyanka
said.
The actor, who was in the capital to deliver the Penguin
Annual Lecture, was in conversation with NDTV anchor Sonia
Singh.
She addressed a full-capacity auditorium at Siri Fort
here on the theme 'Breaking The Glass Ceiling: Chasing a
dream' at the 11th edition of the event.
Talking about chasing her dreams - from Bollywood to
Hollywood to doing philanthropy - the National Award-winning
actor said her biggest dream is to leave behind a legacy.
"I always have the same dream that manifests into
different things and my biggest dream is to leave behind a
legacy," she said.
The actor said she represents all the people who have
shown faith in her, a simple girl who came out of an Army
School from Bareilly.
"If I can, every one of them can," she said.
Priyanka, who has made a mark globally and continues to
shatter the glass ceiling, said for her, the dream has always
been much more than "a car or number of zeroes on my cheque".
"I want my fans and people who have faith in me to one
day turn back and say 'yeah, that was the right reason we
loved her'," she added.
Priyanka said although year 2017 was "tumultuous" for
her, she was proud of herself for making it to the top 10 -
the only female actor - in the 2017 Forbes India Celebrity 100
list.
When asked if those zeroes matter, she said, "Yes,
because I work really hard for them. I'm not someone who was
born with a silver spoon, even though my parents always gave
me one. But I've worked really hard to be where I am and each
of us deserves to be compensated for it."
The actor, who was at her sassiest, added, "How much I
make for spending some portion of time - the boys are never
asked those questions. Their zeroes are ridiculous, have you
even seen the zeroes on their cheques?"
She said her making it to the list is a great moment for
her but it is also sad that it was dominated by the male
stars.
"Why aren't there other females there on the list? Don't
get me wrong, I'm very proud of myself that I had the ability
to work so hard that I can stand shoulder-to-shoulder with my
male counterparts today in the top 10 of India.
"But at the same time, it brings up the question that why
is there just one of me - female actor when there are so many
males in that list?"
The glass ceiling exists not just in India but it's a
worldwide problem and it cuts across all spheres of life, not
only the entertainment industry, she added.
Touching upon the issue of racism, Priyanka said it
exists everywhere and she realised that "South Asian actors
are still a novelty in the West".
The actor, who has become an international icon with her
stint on the US small screen with "Quantico" and her Hollywood
debut with "Baywatch", said that attending this year's Emmy
Awards after-party with handful of South Asian actors such as
Aziz Ansari and Riz Ahmed in a room full of 400 people showed
her there still is a long way to go.
"The fact that you don't change anything about yourself
and still get the world to notice you is when you are a
success story and that's what I did," Priyanka added.
When asked about marriage plans, she said it would happen
at the right time, quipping "with someone who matches my
standards".
"I won't be apologetic for my career at all and I work
damn hard. I've left my home, my family and friends... Lived
in a foreign country to be able to to be where I am and that
was a lot of sacrifice. I went there at the peak of my career
in the Indian film industry. I miss acting in Hindi, the
language, the food... So it would have to be with someone who
values my dedication into my career," Priyanka said.
When asked about the "Padmavati" controversy, the actor
fired back at the anchor for asking questions about "another
film and another filmmaker, instead of my life, for which we
are here".
With the polarised atmosphere in the country, she counter
questioned, "Why is this not always asked to the politicians,
who are actually responsible? What can an actor do to change
about what is happening in the country as much as a part of
the civil society ....
"I can have an opinion, I don't need to be pushed into a
corner to give it, just for me to become a scapegoat," she
said.
The event was also attended by author-columnist Shobhaa
De.
PTI